Reflecting Through A Snowy Hike


Looking out

White Lake

My Dream

As I hiked through the deep snow I couldn't help but reflect on a dream I had a couple nights ago.  I was swimming in a huge body of water with my daughter Alley and there happened to be a lifeguard there showing us how to save someone from drowning.  Alley looked over at me and said, "mom, you can save me" and wrapped her arm around me letting go of all her body weight.  At first, I thought I can't do this and told her so and she didn't listen to me.  I was struggling, trying to hold on to her with one arm and swimming with the other... we started to sink and she still held on to me.  I remember hitting the floor of the lake or whatever it was and thinking I can-not-save-you.  I then awoke.  

As I reflected, I realized this dream really was about my mother and my desperate attempts to save her from dying even though deep in my heart I knew God had his own plans for her.  

The snow is still falling and I continue to move forward with one foot in front of the other.  It's that simple.  I'm moving through the pain and allowing what needs to surface to be released with love.  

When a dear one dies, instead of grieving unreasonably, realize that he has gone on to a higher plane at the will of God, and that God knows what is best for him. Rejoice that he is free. Pray that your love and goodwill be messengers of encouragement to him on his forward path. This attitude is much more helpful. Of course, we would not be human if we did not miss loved ones; but in feeling lonesome for them we don’t want selfish attachment to be the cause of keeping them earthbound. Extreme sorrow prevents a departed soul from going ahead toward greater peace and freedom.
— Paramahansa Yogananda
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