My First Float
I was a little apprehensive with going in for my first float, because I have been dealing with some acute anxiety issues. I called my sister to go over my fears and she was like, “don’t people go to float, because of anxiety?”. She was right and I quickly got into my car to not be late for my appointment. I’m a yoga teacher after all and with all the tools I have I should be able to deal with whatever comes up.
Driving in I had a major discussion with myself (doesn’t everybody) on how I’m was going to look at this in a positive way, making it all about letting go of some things that are holding me back in life and opening myself up for healing. Although, I was all about setting an intention, I was also all about having no expectations and letting things flow naturally.
I came to my room, which felt very warm and remembered to not shower in too hot of water, before getting into the tank. Stepping into the water I could feel the silkiness of the salt water and I slowly started to submerge myself in, to get a feel of things before I switched the lights off.
Once settled in I turned off the lights and it was just me, my breath, and my heartbeat. The darkness consumed me in a good way, like I was up in space floating. At times I opened my eyes and my brain could not differentiate if my eyes were open or closed. I thought for sure the ringing in my ears would be an issue, but honestly I didn’t even notice it at times. I floated effortlessly and to help with not getting pulled away by my thoughts, I started to count my breaths.
Counting my breaths, I did get some visuals and one auditory hallucination coming from my mother’s voice, “I’m not here anymore, so stop asking me questions!”. Right there is what I will take away from this experience. First of all you would probably think I would be saddened by hearing that, but if you only knew my mother, that is something she would say to me in her deep loud voice. I find it comical to say the least and I got the message loud and clear. Yes Mom, I will learn to listen to my own intuition more and stop looking outside of myself for direction.
In all honestly, I was worried I would have all this heavy stuff come up and it didn’t. Makes me think, I might be handling my stress better then I thought. I thank yoga for that.
Only downside to this experience was that I felt cold and I can thank my hot baths for that one.
My only advice for this kind of experience is to take on a witness mind.